When I was having an argument with one of my relatives, I uttered the words, “I am a kaafir” and I slapped myself on the face. Please note that I regret what happened and I need direction and guidance. What is the religious ruling on this case? Do I have to offer any expiation?.
Inna Lillaahi wa inna ilayhi raaji’oon (Verily to Allaah we belong and unto Him is our return). We ask Allaah to keep us safe and sound in this world and in the Hereafter, and we ask Him for a good end and to cause us to die in faith.
You should realize that you have fallen into the worst and most abhorrent of sins, which is the sin of kufr (disbelief) and apostasy, Allaah forbid.
The words which you say that you said are a clear statement of kufr and apostasy. The scholars said: when a person utters the words of kufr, he is judged to be an apostate (if he knew the meaning of the words) and he need not be asked about his intention, as Allaah says (interpretation of the meaning):
“If you ask them (about this), they declare: ‘We were only talking idly and joking.’ Say: ‘Was it at Allaah, and His Ayaat (proofs, evidences, verses, lessons, signs, revelations, etc.) and His Messenger that you were mocking?”
Allaah stated that they disbelieved after having believed, even though they said, “We spoke the words without believing them, we were only talking idly and joking.”
Ibn Nujaym said: Whoever speaks the words of kufr, jokingly or otherwise, is a kaafir according to all the scholars, and it doesn’t matter what his real belief is.
Al-Bahr al-Raa’iq (5/134). See also Nawaaqid al-Eemaan al-Qawliyyah wa’l-‘Amaliyyah (p. 95).
Shaykh Ibn ‘Uthaymeen said:
If he utters words that put him beyond the pale of Islam, such as saying that he is a Jew or a Christian or Magian or that he has nothing to do with Islam, or with the Qur’aan or the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him), then he is a kaafir and an apostate, and we take him at his word. End quote.
Al-Sharh al-Mumti’, 6/279
Apostasy is an extremely serious matter. The scholars differed concerning one who apostatizes then repents: will any of the reward for his previous deeds remain, or is it all erased because of his apostasy?
Shaykh al-Fawzaan was asked the following question:
What is the ruling on one who apostatizes from Islam then returns to it? Should he repeat his previous deeds in accordance with the pillars of Islam, such as Hajj, fasting and prayer, or is it sufficient for him to repent and return to Islam?
The correct scholarly view is that if the apostate returns to Islam and enters Islam anew, repenting to Allaah, then he does not need to repeat the deeds that he did before apostatizing, because Allaah has stipulated that in order for deeds to be cancelled out by apostasy, the person has to die as an apostate.
Allaah says (interpretation of the meaning):
“And whosoever of you turns back from his religion and dies as a disbeliever, then his deeds will be lost in this life and in the Hereafter, and they will be the dwellers of the Fire. They will abide therein forever”
So in order for deeds to be lost, it is stipulated that a person persist in apostasy until he dies in that state. The verse indicates that if a person repents then the deeds that he did before apostatizing are still valid and will be rewarded in sha Allaah. End quote.
Al-Muntaqa min Fataawa al-Fawzaan, 5/429
With regard to slapping the face, this is a deed of Jaahiliyyah which the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) warned against. It is narrated that the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) disavowed himself of the one who does that, as he said: “He is not one of us who slaps his cheeks, rends his garment and calls out with the cry of the Jaahiliyyah.” Narrated by al-Bukhaari (1294). This indicates that slapping the cheeks is a major sin.
As you regret what you did, we hope that Allaah will accept your repentance. You have to utter the Shahaadatayn (twin declaration of faith) in order to re-enter Islam after going out of it. You have to do good deeds and guard your tongue, for a person may say a word that angers Allaah but he regards it as insignificant, then he will be thrown into the Fire and will continue falling down into it for seventy years.
With regard to expiation, there is no expiation for what you have done apart from repentance, regret and resolve not to do it again.
We ask Allaah to accept your repentance and to enable you to adhere to His religion.
And Allaah knows best.